14 November 2020 - 15:14 • 13841 views



Beyou was expected to just say a few words on the pontoon on his return to Les Sables d'Olonne but clearly the warmth of the welcome in the Channel drew out a few more thoughts...but for sure he was unequivocal. If the boat can be repaired to 100% he wants to go back....

"You just have to let go of what you have been concentrating on for four years, so it is really hard. On the trip back I was just trying to tries to contrate on there not being any further breaks on board or collisions; getting into the dock, speaking to the team and just concentrating on other things. Seeing everyone at the dock is a bit emotional and brings it all back because this is just the last place you want to be.
You see all these people, but it is sad too and not easy although they give you a lot of energy too. Everyone is aware of what is going on and the race ends. Some people might just say it is sport, but sill it is sport and I have put everything into it for four years, if not longer. This is brutal for me.
The start of the race was not easy, evidently for me, but for everyone.  For sure those at sea really, really deserve to be there and have great merit because the storm was really violent and so those who have managed to get through and now get the downwind conditions they really deserve. They all manged to get through and they are all great sailors. You can’t just see my situation and we need to look at all those out there and I would like to be there with them.
I see Alex who has moved into the lead and who sent me a lovely message this morning. I would like to have been there and had my racing against him and all the others too. It is past now and Alex’s message, Armel, Fabrice and all those on shore be the Charal employees, friends and the public, is pretty incredible. 
You need to try and step back and be unemotional and be Cartesian and we are going to give ourselves 24 hours to check the boat and the worst of the damage, notably the rudder, the spreaders and then all the things that ensued from the crash, the collateral damage, so we have to check the  whole boat over.
In 24 hours, we will know what is broken, what can be fixed and whether it can be done within the time limit and then, if it can be done, of course I will set off again.
If technically it can be done, the plan is to go and that is the objective. At sea we will see how it goes, but right now the essential thing is to check the boat and see if we can repair and we will go if it can be repaired. It is a mechanical sport, so we rely on the material. I am convinced that we will try and fix it, but the devil is in the detail and I see that everyone is here. The architects, the builders, all the experts and shore team, so we will know within 24 hours and then will take a decision.!
I really want to go, that is not the issue, I want to maintain that frame of mind. I will be 3,000 miles behind so it is no longer a race, but we will see.
You go through all forms of emotions and it is something that is extremely hard to deal with but coming back you deal with the practicalities; try and manage the boat, not put too much pressure on the rudder and avoid losing the rig with only the one backstay. You just try to not sail to fast and focus on getting back.
I was hoping that coming back in January the world would have changed a bit, but after just one week not that much has changed!
We are just going to have to be patient. I have lived some very tough moments but also some really good ones. That is what is so different and so special about this race. 
Last time I finished third and there may more opportunities. It is a difficult race, and you know it when you sign up. When you go through these difficult the last place you want to be is on your boat and going through it, but you are there because you chose to be there. You try and play out the various scenarios that can happen, but a mad one like this one is hard. I have never been so ready to go and then this happens, and it is all over. You have to learn how to live with it otherwise you just do not get over it.
The race is going on and the leaders are doing brilliantly tactically. Jean Le Cam and the guys who opted for the inshore route was great tactically. The race is wonderful, and we must encourage those who are still racing. It is this contrast that makes this event so incredibly special."